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e is absolutely nothing in the world but youth！〃
dorian gray listened； open…eyed and wondering。 the spray of lilac fell from his hand upon the gravel。 a furry bee came and buzzed round it for a moment。 then it began to scramble all over the oval stellated globe of the tiny blossoms。 he watched it with that strange interest in trivial things that we try to develop when things of high import make us afraid； or when we are stirred by some new emotion for which we cannot find expression； or when some thought that terrifies us lays sudden siege to the brain and calls on us to yield。 after a time the bee flew away。 he saw it creeping into the stained trumpet of a tyrian convolvulus。 the flower seemed to quiver； and then swayed gently to and fro。
suddenly the painter appeared at the door of the studio and made staccato signs for them to e in。 they turned to each other and smiled。
〃i am waiting；〃 he cried。 〃do e in。 the light is quite perfect； and you can bring your drinks。〃
they rose up and sauntered down the walk together。 two green…and…white butterflies fluttered past them； and in the pear…tree at the corner of the garden a thrush began to sing。
〃you are glad you have met me； mr。 gray；〃 said lord henry； looking at him。
〃yes； i am glad now。 i wonder shall i always be glad？〃
〃always！ that is a dreadful word。 it makes me shudder when i hear it。 women are so fond of using it。 they spoil every romance by trying to make it last for ever。 it is a meaningless word； too。 the only difference between a caprice and a lifelong passion is that the caprice lasts a little longer。〃
as they entered the studio； dorian gray put his hand upon lord henrys arm。 〃in that case； let our friendship be a caprice；〃 he murmured； flushing at his own boldness； then stepped up on the platform and resumed his pose。
lord henry flung himself into a large wicker arm…chair and watched him。 the sweep and dash of the brush on the canvas made the only sound that broke the stillness； except when； now and then； hallward stepped back to look at his work from a distance。 in the slanting beams that streamed through the open doorway the dust danced and was golden。 the heavy scent of the roses seemed to brood over everything。
after about a quarter of an hour hallward stopped painting； looked for a long time at dorian gray； and then for a long time at the picture； biting the end of one of his huge brushes and frowning。 〃it is quite finished；〃 he cried at last； and stooping down he wrote his name in long vermilion letters on the left…hand corner of the canvas。
lord henry came over and examined the picture。 it was certainly a wonderful work of art； and a wonderful likeness as well。
〃my dear fellow； i congratulate you most warmly；〃 he said。 〃it is the finest portrait of modern times。 mr。 gray； e over and look at yourself。〃
the lad started； as if awakened from some dream。
〃is it really finished？〃 he murmured； stepping down from the platform。
〃quite finished；〃 said the painter。 〃and you have sat splendidly to…day。 i am awfully obliged to you。〃
〃that is entirely due to me；〃 broke in lord henry。 〃isnt it； mr。 gray？〃
dorian made no answer； but passed listlessly in front of his picture and turned towards it。 when he saw it he drew back； and his cheeks flushed for a moment with pleasure。 a look of joy came into his eyes； as if he had recognized himself for the first time。 he stood there motionless and in wonder； dimly conscious that hallward was speaking to him； but not catching the meaning of his words。 the sense of his own beauty came on him like a revelation。 he had never felt it before。 basil hallwards pliments had seemed to him to be merely the charming exaggeration of friendship。 he had listened to them； laughed at them； forgotten them。 they had not influenced his nature。 then had e lord henry wotton with his strange panegyric on youth； his terrible warning of its brevity。 that had stirred him at the time； and now； as he stood gazing at the shadow of his own loveliness； the full reality of the description flashed across him。 yes； there would be a day when his face would be wrinkled and wizen； his eyes dim and colourless； the grace of his figure broken and deformed。 the scarlet would pass away from his lips and the gold steal from his hair。 the life that was to make his soul would mar his body。 he would bee dreadful； hideous； and uncouth。
as he thought of it； a sharp pang of pain struck through him like a knife and made each delicate fibre of his nature quiver。 his eyes deepened into amethyst； and across them came a mist of tears。 he felt as if a hand of ice had been laid upon his heart。
〃dont you like it？〃 cried hallward at last； stung a little by the lads silence； not understanding what it meant。
〃of course he likes it；〃 said lord henry。 〃who wouldnt like it？ it is one of the greatest things in modern art。 i will give you anything you like to ask for it。 i must have it。〃
〃it is not my property； harry。〃
〃whose property is it？〃
〃dorians； of course；〃 answered the painter。
〃he is a very lucky fellow。〃
〃how sad it is！〃 murmured dorian gray with his eyes still fixed upon his own portrait。 〃how sad it is！ i shall grow old； and horrible； and dreadful。 but this picture will remain always young。 it will never be older than this particular day of june。 。 。 。 if it were only the other way！ if it were i who was to be always young； and the picture that was to grow old！ for thatfor thati would give everything！ yes； there is nothing in the whole world i would not give！ i would give my soul for that！〃
〃you would hardly care for such an arrangement； basil；〃 cried lord henry； laughing。 〃it would be rather hard lines on your work。〃
〃i should object very strongly； harry；〃 said hallward。
dorian gray turned and looked at him。 〃i believe you would； basil。 you like your art better than your friends。 i am no more to you than a green bronze figure。 hardly as much； i dare say。〃
the painter stared in amazement。 it was so unlike dorian to speak like that。 what had happened？ he seemed quite angry。 his face was flushed and his cheeks burning。
〃yes；〃 he continued； 〃i am less to you than your ivory hermes or your silver faun。 you will like them always。 how long will you like me？ till i have my first wrinkle； i suppose。 i know； now； that when one loses ones good looks； whatever they may be； one loses everything。 your picture has taught me that。 lord henry wotton is perfectly right。 youth is the only thing worth having。 when i find that i am growing old； i shall kill myself。〃
hallward turned pale and caught his hand。 〃dorian！ dorian！〃 he cried； 〃dont talk like that。 i have never had such a friend as you； and i shall never have such another。 you are not jealous of material things； are you？ you who are finer than any of them！〃
〃i am jealous of everything whose beauty does not die。 i am jealous of the portrait you have painted of me。 why should it keep what i must lose？ every moment that passes takes something from me and gives something to it。 oh； if it were only the other way！ if the picture could change； and i could be always what i am now！ why did you paint it？ it will mock me some daymock me horribly！〃 the hot tears welled into his eyes； he tore his hand away and； flinging himself on the divan； he buried his face in the cushions； as though he was praying。
〃this is your doing； harry；〃 said the painter bitterly。
lord henry shrugged his shoulders。 〃it is the real dorian gray that is all。〃
〃it is not。〃
〃if it is not； what have i to do with it？〃
〃you should have gone away when i asked you；〃 he muttered。
〃i stayed when you asked me；〃 was lord henrys answer。
〃harry； i cant quarrel with my two best friends at once； but between you both you have made me hate the finest piece of work i have ever done； and i will destroy it。 what is it but canvas and colour？ i will not let it e across our three lives and mar them。〃
dorian gray lifted his golden head from the pillow； and with pallid face and tear…stained eyes； looked at him as he walked over to the deal painting…table that was set beneath the high curtained window。 what was he doing there？ his fingers were straying about among the litter of tin tubes and dry brushes； seeking for something。 yes； it was for the long palette…knife； with its thin blade of lithe steel。 he had found it at last。 he was going to rip up the canvas。
with a stifled sob the lad leaped from the couch； and； rushing over to hallward； tore the knife out of his hand； and flung it to the end of the studio。 〃dont； basil； dont！〃 he cried。 〃it would be murder！〃
〃i am glad you appreciate my work at last； dorian；〃 said the painter coldly when he had recovered from his surprise。 〃i never thought you would。〃
〃appreciate it？ i am in love with it； basil。 it is part of myself。 i feel that。〃
〃well； as soon as you are dry； you shall be varnished； and framed； and sent home。 then you can do what you like with yourself。〃 and he walked across the room and rang the bell for tea。 〃you will have tea； of course； dorian？ and so will you； harry？ or do you object to such simple pleasures？〃
〃i adore simple pleasures；〃 said lord henry。 〃they are the last refuge of the plex。 but i dont like scenes； except on the stag